Kartik reflection on Srila Prabhupada’s disappearance day.

By Pradyumna dasa - 10.11 2021

I found a valuable connection to Srila Prabhupada while being absorbed in Damodara lila. We learn of Krsna’s distribution of yogurt, about the fearful chastisement He receives from Mother Yasoda, and of her binding Krsna after experiencing lengths and lengths of rope being two fingers too short. While tied to a wooden grinding mortar, Krsna crawls, dragging the mortar towards the two Yamala Arjuna trees, drags the mortar between them and brings the trees crashing down.

Immediately, the trapped demigods appear in their full effulgence and begin offering prayers to little Damodar. Their prayers are consistent with what we hear throughout Srimad Bhagavatam: glorifying Krishna’s supreme position, He being the source of creation, above the modes of nature, and the source of incarnations. In concluding their prayers, they express gratitude to Narada Muni (SB10.10.37). They say tavanucara-kinkarau ‘we are always servants of Narada Muni.’ They say it is because of the mercy of his curse they became trees, standing in the courtyard where Krsna played. And now they are seeing Krsna face to face. This is a significant conclusion to their prayers. While I stand before my worshipful Lordships, Sri Sri Radha Madhava, offering prayers face to face, contemplating my bound material situation, I learn that my prayers should conclude with something similar. The twin demigods, in referring to Narada Muni, exclaiming they remain his servants, is an expression of identity - they are Narada Muni’s servants. We have heard Krsna say 'he who is a devotee of my devotee, is my devotee.’ How much more pleasing will it be for Krsna when we conclude our prayers tavanucara-kinkarau - I am a servant of Srila Prabhupada, thus solidifying our identity, gratitude and commitment in relation to His Divine Grace.

Further, the demigods conclude by saying 'Henceforward, may all our words describe Your pastimes, may our ears engage in aural reception of Your glories, may our hands, legs and other senses engage in actions pleasing to You, and may our minds always think of Your lotus feet. May our heads offer our obeisances to everything within this world, because all things are also Your different forms, and may our eyes see the forms of Vaisnavas, who are nondifferent from You.’ SB 10.10.38

They make a pledge, a vow. Henceforward - as we are servants of Narada Muni, we offer this commitment. A perfect conclusion in the heart of any disciple and follower. It is by Srila Prabhupada’s grace, I have the gift of Krishna consciousness. While I express my gratitude for these gifts, I reflect on this word henceforward. Concluding my own prayers, what will be my henceforward in Srila Prabhupada’s service? While we observe this auspicious day, reflecting on the glories of Srila Prabhupada, the twin demigods teach us, henceforward, what will be my commitment for the blessings I have received. While I think about this deeply, I repeat tavanucara-kinkarau - I remain a follower of Srila Prabhupada.